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text|phone calls|e-mails|free cheese| etc? |
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[May. 2nd, 2012|03:17 pm] |
--- Private ----
I had a dream last night that Jenn and Jessie Jo were making out and Gracie was sitting on a couch eating popcorn giving them pointers/critiquing them and The Sheriff was threatening to arrest them if they messed up? She cited something that sounded to be legitimate code but it was a dream so nothing makes sense. |
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[Apr. 16th, 2012|10:24 pm] |
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Boom run. That's all I could handle for this year. Something about power tools and rapidly going through wood makes me a bit...hesitant. Work is dangerous enough with the knives in the kitchen I don't need to lose a hand with a giant's knife! I'm so tired but a good tired and a good sore. I had started running more and with unbalanced weights to get me in gear for this year and it paid off. Not falling into the water is always a good thing. |
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[Mar. 14th, 2012|01:32 pm] |
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Can haz spring? |
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[Jan. 25th, 2012|10:14 am] |
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The curse of being a geek is that you’ll always be a geek. When I started my physical metamorphosis way back when, I had the hopes that I’d change as a person but I didn’t. I attracted different kinds of women the superficial ones. I think it was my new found confidence coupled with the long gone awkward fat kid suite. I still feel like that awkward fat kid though. This journal entry is really hard to write because I don’t want to admit any of this to myself but I have no balls.
I’ve never been good with women when it comes to anything other than being friends. I’m the guy who gets grouped in the friend zone for life. I know it’s my fault. I never make a move. I’m terrified of rejection and even worse messing up the friendship I have. Then there’s the point of view of the woman. I could and can completely see and understand how they’d think I was a freak/stalker/weirdo because it would probably, to them, seem like my professions of wanting to be more than just friends would come out of left field. Sometimes I do feel like a creep because I have feelings for someone who doesn’t feel the same way. I might be the king of unrequited feelings.
I’m 28 years old and I still don’t know how to do this whatever this is. My longest relationship doesn’t even really count as one. Not in the typical sense I guess. It wasn’t much of a relationship. Not a romantic one anyway. It was more like --- well that doesn’t matter I don’t want or need to trash her.
So how about this weather? I think it's time to watch Escape from LA |
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[Jan. 20th, 2012|10:02 am] |
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Work is where you work not where you live. This is so weird. |
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[Dec. 1st, 2011|10:04 pm] |
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The thought of people bidding on me is strange. I think I'm more worried that no one will. I know there are some loud and outgoing people who will feel good about being up there but I'm not one of them. I have to keep reminding myself I'm doing it for the kids and not myself. |
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[Nov. 14th, 2011|08:55 pm] |
Who wants free food?
I kind of went overboard tonight. I baked way too many mini-pumpkin pies or rather I made too much batter so now I have 60 mini pies and I do not need all of those. |
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[Oct. 26th, 2011|06:16 pm] |
I was thinking of being Sheldon from The Big Bang Theory for Halloween for a while until I got out of denial. I look nothing like Sheldon so I'd just be a nerd which I already am. Then I thought maybe The Hulk but that's a lot of skin and it's really cold out. Spiderman has more coverage but not much for insulation. Maybe I should be a penguin.
Any suggestions? |
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[Oct. 11th, 2011|10:51 pm] |
I've been out of work because of this mouse-shit fever. I don't know what to do with myself. I cook. It's what I do. I cook for other people. I'm too afraid to go outside to work out. I feel like I'm in a high class prison cell. My parents left town yesterday and want me to stay there but I don't want to be in a place that's big and me all alone. I'd rather be in my small apartment alone. I don't like being alone.
All this free time is unsettling. I re-read The Hobbit today. I've spent a lot of time on youtube which I never do. I spent about 3 hours using this thing called "stumble upon" to find random sites full of geeky cooking stuff and webcomics.
I'm going to make a fried okra salad with kale and a lemon dressing and spicy lasagna tomorrow night. I'm finishing off the ballotine chicken from yesterday that is stuffed with spinach, mushrooms, onions, and goat cheese. I wonder how long this plague is going to last because I really don't want to have to resort to the emergency top ramen that's in the very, very back of my pantry. |
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[Oct. 4th, 2011|09:04 am] |
This is awkward. So. I'm a Mama's boy. I love my mom. She's a really great person and I tell her everything. I keep forgetting that she tells her Husband everything. I told her about the recent happenings of my love life and she told Frank...and Frank told his daughters...ALL three of them...and now my phone is full of voice mails and my e-mail box is full and I'm full up on texts with them all three of them even the one who doesn't like me that much...trying to set me up.
I get that girls do this. I grew up with a lot of women in the house. I know how your crafty minds work but damn. I kind of feel like my balls have been removed right now. I think I'm capable of finding a woman on my own. Maybe. I've done it before I think I can do it again.
So anyway I feel like my man card has been revoked for this month. |
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[Sep. 21st, 2011|06:42 pm] |
Hey Gracie,
There's gonna be a mini beer festival in Portland this weekend. You want to go? They're going to have beer from 5 micro-breweries and New Belgium. |
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[Sep. 19th, 2011|11:29 pm] |
It’s official now. My girl friend and I broke up. At least she had the guts to do it on Skype since she won’t be coming back to the country for another nine months. It was mutual even though she was the one to initiate it. She’ll still be a good friend but we fell out of love a long time ago. It’s sad when two people are so afraid of being alone that they hold onto each other like we did especially when she’s half way around the world/has been for a few years. I could paint her in a horrible light but it wouldn’t do any good. She always had this hold on me though. I want to blame her for keeping me in this thing for so long but I didn’t grow a pair and cut it off when she cheated on me. I brought it on myself. Maybe when she comes home we’ll be able to see one another without feeling weird or guilty. I'm not really sure how to feel right now sad or relieved.
The guys in the kitchen would tell me to be happy, get drunk, and bang a hot chick. My step sisters would reply: Watch Drew Berrymore movies and eat ice-cream, suck it up and get over myself, and the youngest would tell me to go get laid. My ex (that feels weird) would say get drunk and go for a walk. We'll see what happens... |
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[Aug. 19th, 2011|11:31 am] |
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I can't wait to see Fright Night. Sunday night. McLovin is gunna be in it. That's his name forever I won't ever learn his real name. I heard Lisa Lobbe is in this and I'm pretty curious to see what she looks like now. And I'd be lying if I said I wasn't pleased to find out that Imogen Poots is in it too. She's beautiful and has a fun name to say. Imogen. Poots. Poots. |
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[Jul. 14th, 2011|05:33 pm] |
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I know I might get some flack for this but I've only just saw Scott Pilgrim Vs. The World. I'm really bad at seeing movies when they come out. I'm glad I finally saw it because it is so awesome. Not to mention all the girls were sexy in that cute way without being slutty. The soundtrack was really cool and I downloaded it off of itunes when the movie was over. That's really all I have to say. Nothing exciting huh? I just liked the movie and the soundtrack. It's been a while since I've seen a good movie with a good soundtrack but maybe that's just because I don't watch that many movies. I'd like to but I always forget and I have a hard time just sitting around.
Is/are there any movies out there that you haven't seen yet but it seems like everyone else in the world has that you want to see? |
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